Lies full of holes through which the truth leaks

Drowning me in their reality

Leaving me gasping for air

Wondering where my world has gone

Here I am again

Is it where I’ll always be?

But, no, that’s not where I am

Because I see it now

Before it swallows me whole

Before I suffocate

Here is where I am

And it’s not where I was

Only where I am

Better or worse, doesn’t matter

For it is now, here,

This moment that counts

I won’t waste it thinking about what was

Only what tomorrow will be.

Deep within the confines of my soul

Lurks the lonely child within

Searching for comfort

In the barest phrase

The slightest motion of kindness

Cringing at a harsh word

Smiling without, crying within

Wanting, needing someone

To see

To know

To feel

To share

Sighing, when again

Disappointment comes.

Onward the journey goes

Another day in the life

Friends gathered

Happy events

Sigh

Just that one piece missing

That elusive piece

The emptiness that wraps itself around me so coldly

And I find not enough warmth in the happiness that is there

I look

I try

I stop trying and let it come

Yet it doesn’t

And here I am again

Alone, but not afraid, just sad

Bitterness, anger have left

Shadows do not haunt the night

Just emptiness

In time, my friend, in time

I have faith.