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| Is life this confusing for everyone or is it just me? |
| 05.11.04 (6:12 am) [edit] |
I’ve come to the conclusion I am the worst judge of people. The absolute worst. It’s not just boyfriends I misjudge, it’s all people. I cling to that stupid belief that everyone is basically good at heart and that’s where I am so damn wrong. I look at myself and I know what kind of person I am, and it’s not always pretty. I can be selfish, I can be cruel. I also know the reasons I can be that way. I do it to protect myself from hurt. What I don’t understand is the people who can be like that without that reasoning. Then I think along another line. Sometimes being nice does no one any favors. What kind of friend am I to someone when I let them do whatever without saying “hey maybe that’s not the best idea.” Then again, who I am to tell anyone else how to live or what to do or what decisions to make? I don’t like anyone presuming to tell me what is right or wrong for me to do in my life and therefore don’t often do that to anyone else. How can anyone give advice when no one walks in anyone else’s shoes and therefore can never truly understand the entire situation and all the feelings involved?
I got off the subject there. I was discussing my judgement in people. See, I tend to trust everyone to a point. But I am not one to trust someone with a lot of knowledge about me and my life very easily. And it just seems to me that anyone I have trusted with that knowledge has either used it against me or hurt me with it. Now, maybe that’s just life, but it seems to me that there is just something really wrong with my judgement to have that happen time and time again.
I guess the question is now, what am I going to do about it? Do I just isolate myself and not trust anyone ever again or do I give people the chance to hurt me more? Doesn’t that seem like a catch 22? Isolation is never fun and can be painful at times and yet trusting the wrong people isn’t fun and can be painful too.
Is life this confusing for everyone or is it just me?
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posted by: sneezy (reply)
post date: 05.14.04 (4:21 pm)
way to analytical - just live and get over it!
posted by: LastPoeticKiss (reply)
post date: 05.16.04 (4:31 pm)
gawd i do the same thing! i want to see the good in people, and believe there is good. then ig et screwed over. blah. i was born with too big of a heart i think.
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